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Tuesday, February 26, 2013

last night

last night, around 3:00 am, I woke up to the sound of Turner crying.
I went in his room to check and see why he was awake, and it seems there was no reason.
I don't think anything was really wrong. In fact, now that I think of it, I think he was crying for me. not crying for his mama, but crying for my benefit...
after I picked him up, we sat in the rocker, and I sang softly to him. he didn't immediately fall back asleep, but just remained still. he laid his head on my chest as I stroked his cheek. 
time stood still. 
It was so quiet and peaceful.
just me and my little babe. 

I have struggled the past few weeks. no reason in particular, but I have just felt "off".
and time and time again, small things (like last night) have happened. 
I am grateful for this time in my life, for these sweet boys, and the lessons I continue to learn.
I'm grateful for the opportunity I have to grow, learn, and explore.
I'm grateful for the ability and opportunity to serve others.
and I'm extremely grateful for being awakened at 3:00 am, sometimes it sucks, but nights like last night remind me why I'm blessed.


  1. It is true. Sometimes we need those little reminders. The other night I was feeling so sad - I came home from a social thing and felt like I am boring and uninteresting and that no one cares to talk to me because I don't do anything - I don't have a job or any cool hobby or talent or anything that makes me interesting. Sad way to think I know but I needed a small reminder that Marcus and Asher mean the world to me and that I am lucky to have the life I have. Love ya!

  2. So sweet!!! I love moments like those:)

  3. This is a great post & great reminder. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with work & the day to day grind that I forget to enjoy the simple things Aftynn does & the beautiful things in my life. I'm glad I read this post today. And when you feel overwhelmed you can call me :)

  4. Sweet post April. My life has been loaded with those kinds of subtle reminders too lately.

  5. so true. wouldn't change a thing about my life!!